The illogicality of nicotine addiction

How can the funeral of a colleague who died suddenly of cancer, aged only 68, just before Christmas make me crave a cigarette? There is no logic in this at all! Happy to say that I resisted with the help of my trusty blackcurrant and liquorice drops and the NOPE mantra. I had really expected today to be a walk in the park, being at work, surrounded by non-smokers, yet somehow today I seem to have had more 'wobbly moments' than at home with my partner's cigarettes lying around. This quit is teaching me more about myself - quite possibly that I am simply perverse! ;)

Hope that Jim and Mina (and Vicki too if she is still with us) are getting through day five without too much difficulty. Is there a symbol for a metaphorical glass of champagne which we can award ourselves on Wednesday night?

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  • It hasn't really been awful though - just made me think a little more about my previous habit and what would make me go and smoke. I suppose that, if anything, it has made me more aware of the risks and more determined not to stop being an 'ex-smoker' as I now think of myself.

  • It's so true that some times we stop and think, when something so impacting and upsetting happens.

    But it's so wonderful to know you are using this in a positive way to your quit .!!!

    Doing very well, just keep going

  • Kent, if it is any help to you, I attended the funeral of our treasurer (I work for a small charity) a few days after my return to work after Christmas last year and I had quite a struggle dealing with ta mega-crave after the service. I hadn't expected it as I was a good month into my quit by then and things were generally well on the way to improving but there's something about occasions like that, I think, that can reallly make a 'comfort fag' seem a necessity. Oddly, the only time I ever had a similar crave after that was at a wedding.

    Sorry for your loss but well done for hanging on in there and riding it out. I shall be raising a virtual glass of something fizzy to all of you stalwart January Quitters when Wednesday hoves into view. :)

  • Hey Kent

    That sounds like an awfully sad day and I hope you got through it ok. You are bang on about smoking urges being illogical, I mean we are all intelligent human beings,yet we chose to ignore the consequences of a nasty habit just to keep it going. It's bizarre, but then I guess that's addiction.

    So glad you got through it Kent, we will definitely raise a glass for the week :)


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