Superclod

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Injected with steroids, check. Underpants on the outside, check. Utility braces fastened, check. Clodmobile tanked up, check. Villains in sight, check. Let's go......

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Hi clod, I have never read your post,s prior to today, so please can you n lighten me, are you focused on your quit ?

Do you really have to inject your steroids? Hope not to personal question.

Tracey

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Faster than a speeding bullet

Go get Nic, Clod, before he takes over Gotham City.

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That made me smile

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Such a s**t day. Woke up at 3 with headache and coughing. Then at 7, still headache, still coughing. Got up made tea. Went to open back door and reached for bakky pouch on shelf, all on autopilot, and stopped myself with a 'WTF do you think you're doing' moment. Shoulder and arm hurting all day from steroid injection (yes, it was necessary), and making me want a comfort fag. Tired, so resistance very low. I haven't broken, but I'm struggling today.

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Poor you, Clod. You are going through the wars a bit aren't you?

I've not had steroid injections myself but have known plenty of people that have and it isn't very pleasant. I will keep my fingers crossed that once the initial discomfort wears off you will start to feel better than you did prior to the injection.

Some of your headache might be due to that don't you think? Though both headaches and the cough are very common quit symptoms, as is feeling generally pants (look up quitters flu and you'll see what I mean). It's an extra thing you're having to deal with (not to mention all the psychological baggage) so no wonder you're hardly feeling like dancing around the maypole today.

There's nothing I can say to make it any easier for you, but we are here for you, and I'm sending lots of positive vibes your way. All the nasty quit-related stuff will pass, and as smoking seems to exacerbate just about every medical condition known to man, quitting will hopefully have a positive effect on your shoulder/arm problem longer term (do you have a frozen shoulder?)

Pamper yourself, indulge yourself, treat yourself (and ask someone else to feed the chucks if needs be). You're to all intents and purposes an invalid at the moment so pretend you're just coming off the back of a dose of proper 'flu and act accordingly.

Hope you feel better later, Clod. You clearly have a wonderful sense of humour and I am sure you'll soon bounce back.

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Oh clod you are sure having a really s..t time aren't you? And I know ths quitting is massive, keep reading and posting my lovely, you have a lot to deal with, and with your quit it all seems soooo much harder, but really solves nothing apart from wanting another smoke after the last one.

The addiction and habit are soooo very hard to break, but am willing you on, you can do this!

On a personal note I have been on long term steroids for 15yeas, so I do understand the pain and the feeling unwell, I do hope you can gain strength to keep gong!

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Thanks for the encouragement Skiddaw....means a lot to me.

Tendonitis and frozen shoulder it is. I'm not gonna crack...just venting frustration. Any thoughts on my response to your question about CO levels the other day?:eek:

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..On a personal note I have been on long term steroids for 15yeas, so I do understand the pain and the feeling unwell, I do hope you can gain strength to keep gong!

Thanks Tracey. Doing me damndest.

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Thanks for the encouragement Skiddaw....means a lot to me.

Tendonitis and frozen shoulder it is. I'm not gonna crack...just venting frustration. Any thoughts on my response to your question about CO levels the other day?:eek:

Sorry, Clod, I had missed your response for some reason. Have just been back and found it. Hmmm- it is odd isn't it? Definitely worth checking out the boilers I think, just to be on the safe side. Mind you, my first reading was 6 and that was close to the end of my second day, so not so very different to yours (and like you I had cut down substantially for several days prior to quitting).

I suspect the reading will be negligible by the time you go back and it will prove to be one of those things. I know my smoking cessation lady told me that some people just have a naturally higher level of CO in their blood than others (one of her colleagues has never smoked but always blows a 3 whereas after the first two weeks I consistently blew 1 or 0).

Let us know what happens won't you?

And sorry you have tendonitis and a frozen shoulder. Well done for gritting your teeth and hanging on in there in view of everything else you're having to deal with at present.

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Let us know what happens won't you?

Sure. Got another appt on the 24th. I'll let you know then. Off out to see a good band later...that'll cheer me up. Off for a rest now.

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Have a lovely evening Clod. That'll cheer you up and take your mind off things I am sure.

See you soon,

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Looking forward to hearing about the gig Clod, hope you'll be stopping by today

Day 5 brings some noticeable improvement to my mood. Did not, as previously, wake in the night with bad headache and spluttering, and I treated myself to a lie in this morning... (the chikkins could wait). Cracked going to the pub and listening to the band last night, a trio of guitar, accordion and violin playing in the gypsy jazz genre. That environment is a biggy for me as beer, music and fags have always gone together for a lot of years in my life. Curiously, that trigger did not have the massive impact I expected it to have, and I was able to ride the pangs out and listen to the music with pleasure instead of thinking all the time that I needed to get somewhere else to have a fag. Actually, very few of my muso friends are still puffers, most having given it up, one by one over the last ten years, (there is only one left in my band now), so that is going to help.

Daytime brings the usual pangs and longing, but not as potent as before, and certainly felt with less of a sense of desperation or urgency about them. But I feel that if I drop my guard at all, I could be vulnerable to those insidious whisperings from the monster.

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Day 5 brings some noticeable improvement to my mood. Did not, as previously, wake in the night with bad headache and spluttering, and I treated myself to a lie in this morning... (the chikkins could wait). Cracked going to the pub and listening to the band last night, a trio of guitar, accordion and violin playing in the gypsy jazz genre. That environment is a biggy for me as beer, music and fags have always gone together for a lot of years in my life. Curiously, that trigger did not have the massive impact I expected it to have, and I was able to ride the pangs out and listen to the music with pleasure instead of thinking all the time that I needed to get somewhere else to have a fag. Actually, very few of my muso friends are still puffers, most having given it up, one by one over the last ten years, (there is only one left in my band now), so that is going to help.

Daytime brings the usual pangs and longing, but not as potent as before, and certainly felt with less of a sense of desperation or urgency about them. But I feel that if I drop my guard at all, I could be vulnerable to those insidious whisperings from the monster.

Hey Clod, sounds like you had a good time! That's my kind of night out a band with an accordion guitar and violin, and a couple of beers perfect! Don't drop your guard at all stay totally vigilant, trust me I let my guard down today and the end result wasn't ideal.... Your posts are brilliant and a pleasure to read, keep it up

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Don't drop your guard at all stay totally vigilant, trust me I let my guard down today and the end result wasn't ideal....

Sorry to hear that Donna:cool: it's been my downfall in the past...that one little one won't hurt me....and then before I know it I'm at the bottom of the slippery slope faster than a gold medalist Olympian skier..

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Sounds like you had a good evening Clod, and very glad to hear you're feeling better today.

You're doing SO well and should be very proud of yourself.

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How's today going?

Pretty good thanks Kat. Got up late after a btr nights sleep. Had breakfast...I'm slightly changing my eating habits too...eating more fruit and so on as a kind of reinforcement to the mindset that things are changing and not so habitual. I think it helps. Went up to feed the chikkins but didn't stop to do any work...wanted a lazy day. Read some stuff. Went for walk along the canal and then back to help prepare dinner. Still getting cravings (to be expected) but today riding the back of the monster has been easier overall. x