To everyone who has taken the time to write to me today. I feel slightly better but in a way it is good that I am so disgusted with myself, I need to remember this feeling going forwards so I dont balls it up again.
I cant wait to get back to where I was which was a really great, confident and relaxed place now I feel anxious, depressed, angry and the list could go on. I am starting to feel better now and am hoping for a much, much better day tomorrow.
Thank you to you all