Major feeling sorry for myself rant alert!!
Well that quit lasted well! What a joke I am? Maybe I'm addicted to serial quitting as well as nicotine.
I can't stick at anything, want to stop smoking, want to lose weight, want to feel happy and proud in myself but can I do it, doesn't look like it. I can seem to stick at anything, why!!
Always go back smoking like an idiot ! I'm that pathetic I've paid nearly £100 in fees to the gym and I haven't even been to pick up my membership card!!
I've read numerous stop smoking books, bought apps, tried the Ecig and what's worse, I've had lost both parents to smoking!!!
Have decided to give it another go tomorrow but I'm already doubting myself, think it's the fear. Keep reading that you need to be ready and want to 100%, I do want to stop and be free from this addiction but my mind always seems to find a reason to start again. So sick and tired of this battle, will I ever be ready!
I think I've made it a million times harder for myself now as with all these failures I have very little confidence in myself!
If your still reading, sorry!