â€œI used to think that, once Iâ€™d refrained from smoking for a certain period of time (say, a month. or a year. whatever.) that the habit was broken and I no longer needed to think about it or prepare myself for its return. now I understand that this is no mere habit, to be put on or taken off like a suit of clothes; it's an addiction, and addictions don't go away.â€
Have read this article more than once before, re-read it again today, finally it seems to be getting through to me, I can never smoke again, Iâ€™ll never be able to control my smoking it will always control me, Iâ€™m no longer physically addicted but Iâ€™m going through that transition period where my body is learning to live without nicotine, learning to live without being poisoned 20 times a day (or more when drinking), feeling blue for no good reason, Iâ€™ve stopped smoking, Iâ€™m exercising, whilst not losing weight Iâ€™m not putting it on (I have actually lost weight since stopping smoking) but I need to accept my metabolic rate has decreased with stopping smoking. There has been this nebulous semi formed idea that at some point a fag will be ok, it wonâ€™t itâ€™s never going to change, have been here so many times before â€“ never take another puff. It will get easier â€“ this too will pass.