Smoked for 16 years- half my life. How sad. Last couple of years haven't smoked during the day- only evenings. An NHS Q and A test said my addiction to Nicotine was low. Having some Nicotine Replacement in the evenings. Want to be a non smoker. Don't want cancer or to smell anymore. My body is getting some nicotine so why is it worse by ten fold on Day 5 than it is on Day one? What's the big trick I'm missing here?? I don't get why is it harder now than when I started. Why do I think about it ALL evening? Tried exercise/ films/ TV/ reading. I don't want to smoke and I'm giving my body what it wants so I don't understand. When does it get better? A week? Month? Year? I don't want to give in but what's the ETA at feeling normal?