Hello all. Well I didn't smoke, but I do think that is my mate had any one him(which he didn't) I would have! So very close shave. I hate what smoking makes me. Selfish, moody and why is it that I can't relax when there is someone who smokes around me. I hate it and myself even more for letting the white sticks control me like they do. They are still making me feel like utter shit and had yet another bad day with things yesterday. I don't want to smoke but for some reason, this weekend I can't stop thinking about them and I am so grumpy! I just need to get through today and I know things will get better. I want to start enjoying and living at the weekend but find it very difficult presently.