I currently feel out of control of my life. I am a student midwife and the work is really intense along with the studying too. I don't love myself very much at the moment either and am currently 5ft 1 and150lbs. If I look at pictures of myself i realise that i look more pregnant than some of the full term women i look after.
I am constantly tired and have to confess to comfort eating. So after my daughter showing me a video of me dancing at Christmas on the Wii, next to my beautiful sister and niece, I finally have to acknowledge that the weight will not disappear by itself.
I have chosen this way to lose weight because I have never stuck to anything very long before and that includes jobs. So by writing a blog and following the nhs plan, I am hoping that I can take control of my life and follow something through without quitting. So tonight is the preparation and tomorrow the adventure begins.