I want to apologize for my last message. I woke up felt better after writing into the forum getting it off my chest and did well with food. Today was a good day. I was just frustrated why I can't live the way I did today in control it felt so good!!. I guess I am tired of being 235 lbs 80lbs overweight. And battling the Christmas season. I guess I am tired of being tired. And carrying that amount of weight is very tiring. I am going to see if I can see my dietitian between boxing day and new years worth a try. My apologies. Tomorrow is a new day. ps I did well with meals today but I had second plate of homemade macaroni and cheese not to big but that is ok. So I have 3 days of maintaining good eating. As I am writing that I wonder why I went off the handle like that. Go figures!!..