I've been feeling a lot better about myself just lately, after my downfall with my clothes shopping. Loving my bikini, have a new mirror that makes you look slimmer haha, and just generally not actually worrying about the number on my clothes tag at the moment, because I know I am going to make it change.
But, my friend sort of pooped on my parade this morning. She said she's depressed about having to be beach ready in October... She's a petite size 8/10 and she's worried about being beach ready... It's angered me slightly, because I'd kill to be as slim as she is, I know everyone has their own insecurities.
I told her she is beach ready (meaning regardless of her size etc) so she said she's going to the gym 3 times a week (gfh haha), so she better be for Oct. Again, getting a little more irritated.
I told her (which is what I'm sort of trying to think and what you lovely people have said to me) I'm pretty sure everyone will be worried about how they look themselves more than whether her arms don't look toned enough. And then said, she'll be standing next to me the whole time, so she'll instantly look slimmer anyway XD
It's that sort of thing where, your friends know you're very insecure about your (overweight) body and are trying to lose weight, then they go and moan about their small toned little frames. You're just there like, "if you really want something to be worried about have some of my fat", to kind of justify it. She's probably never had more than 5% body fat on her haha.
I feel mean, but it's just kind of annoyed me and reminded me how far I've got to go and getting me a bit anxious about pulling all my kit off for the whole of the hotel to see, kind of thing. It's made me feel bad that I haven't actually managed to even drop a size like I wanted to.
Looks like I'm going for a run tonight then!