Ok here's the thought ...... Before I started this plan, I was happy , wasn't i ? potching about walking the dog, cooking, eating unhealthy and delightfully yummy foods, chocolate, cheese, pizza, sour cream, writing, reading, my uniform was jogging trousers with loose tops, everyday. Blessed with a lovely oh, no money worries.... I was happy ????? I've been on this plan just over a week and haven't weighed yet but what I have noticed is the huge, massive, change psychologically...... I found that I didn't want to go anywhere, museums, the seaside, anywhere really, I was happy in my own little bubble ..... Now, despite knowing if I've lost any weight yet the sheer 'lift' of 'doing something about it' , considering mind you I never thought me lifestyle inhibited me in any way, miraculously I'm receptive to going out, actually found myself putting on a pair of jeans, putting some make up on, styling my hair...... All this without knowing if I've lost a sausage ! It really made me question was I happy before, you know the happy fat girl thing ! That has led me to believe that even though I was 'surface happy' my life and that of my oh was being slowly shrunk to 'house based' enjoyment , and while there's nothing wrong with that at all , how come now I 'want' to go out as well as enjoying homey type things ? This is gonna be a long, slow, process, I'm going to struggle, feel down etc etc etc but it's STILL positive for the reason that I feel like I'm a participator again in living ! My posts always seem to be long ! Sorry people, it's the writer in me !
We are trying !
Love trierisme ! Xxxx