Hi everyone, just feel like I need to unload. ( this May be a long one). Got so much running through my mind.
So I'm 23 wks now and dd Xmas day. I also have 4 children two of wich were born premature at 28 wks both due to placental abruptions, so considered high risk with this pregnancy I have to be scanned and see my consultant fortnightly from 26wks onwards. So far baby is perfect no worries with her at all ( by the way I'm having a little girl and very happy, that will make it 3boys, 2 girls perfect.) The reason for this is to scan my placenta this makes me feel pretty rubbish as the problem is with me it's like I can't even carry my babies properly. My last meetin with my consultant he pretty much said be prepared for it to happen again as it's happened to me twice it's more than likely going to happen again .(I've allready got my hospital bag packed on the docs advice just Incase) . So I'm constantly fearing I could have her at any time.
Then this brings me to my next worry, how will I cope with a poorly baby and daily vists to hospital and weekend stays with her ( this is what I done with my last 2 preemies) all with 4 children to care for at home and the months leading up to Xmas it's going to be a nightmare.
Then let's say I carry this baby full term ( I'm praying pls stay in there baby) docs will not let me have a vaginal birth and will book me in for a c section at 39 weeks, exactly one week before Xmas what bad timing . I have allready told the children that Xmas will be different this year and probably no Xmas dinner. They seem fine with this tho.
Also I'm havin such trouble sleeping lately the other night I was still awake at four in the morning so decided to get up and have a cuppa also Cleaned the kitchen while I was there I just can't sleep it's constantly " now what have I got to do about this and what shall I do about that, what shall I do next and omg my heads gonna explode,.
Oh well at least the kids are back at school next week , yaaaaaaaay.
Sorry if I've been waffling on a bit, I hope I've made sense ( my mum says I've defiantly got pregnancy brain.)
Thanks for reading xxx