G'day ms newbies. Take a break, relax, lay back. Let a tear fall. Breathe deep then breathe out. This is a big adventure that YOU You are about to undertake. It will have many ups and down. In my opinion more downs, BUT that is the life we face. The challenge before us. Shedding tears is never wrong, but do not ask why me. The answer is always "because", because why I do not know your specific reason, I think because YOU are Human and this is a human disease, so why not YOU. Yes, YOU are special to me, but in the broader scope, are YOU that special? So accept it, try your best to be unusually strong, persevere, laugh at all that ms throws at YOU. Preserve, this if0 doable.
Good luck and do your best,
Royce