G'day. Take it slow, be easy on yourself; this is a very long path that we all walk; it is not a sprint. There are no prizes for being the first to the finish line. Actually, the last place person is probably the winner. I am a huge fan of having a good long hard cry. Do not fret it does not mean that "YOU" under any circumstances are weak. Just that "YOU" need to let it out, whatever it may be. I think it may be different for different people. Do not expect that these tears are a one and gone event. Twenty years on and a quite settled life, I have been known to get quite misty-eyed over who knows what. Such is life with a chronic, incurable illness that takes great joy in messing with your emotions.
Part of my coping mechanism is that I make my Relapsing Remitting ms (RRms) a changing character. It is always a subtly changing something. Sometimes a broken part of me, sometimes a manipulative, conniving gremlin to be out maneuvered. RRms changes the rules on me whenever it wants, so I can do the same to it. Without a doubt, this has little effect on the illness, but it does give me a little power and strength, and we all need that whenever we can get it. When I was first Diagnosed (DX'd), I bought myself a yellow plastic construction hat. I played the Bob the Builder song every time I had an injection or any other RRms treatment. Silly yes, but it made me think that I was doing my part in fixing me and it made me feel a little better.
I know that "YOU" are seeing a pattern here. I found positives and ways always to give myself strength, to build me up. These days I play AC\DC Thunderstruck when I do my morning sit-ups. I remember the video of all the army tanks firing their cannons. I have actually seen a live fire power demonstration, and it is impressive. Another memory of strength always strength, never weakness.
"YOU" and I have RRms now, I will never look at this condition as anything but an opportunity to solve a problem. How do I do this? What do I need to do to achieve my goals? This is a problem that must be solved as much as I can. Never totally as that is a cure and that does not exist. Solved as much as I can to make my and your life journey as comfortable as we can.
Royce
Always a problem to be solved, that is all it is
