G’day again my beloved family. Restful sleep was had by all, with nice sweet dreams, I hope. I realized something just now. After making my morning tea. Remember cut back on coffee to get better sleep. Not sure how well that is working, I do miss my 6 cups a day of strong black coffee, per day Alas, we all have to make sacrifices these days, with Relapsing-Remitting (RRms). Of course, sacrifices are called for if “YOU” would like to stay standing as long as possible and I do.
Anyway, my other first thing is that I listened to Mr Marley, “3 little birds”. My eye twinged a little this morning. Enough to wake me and get me out of bed. When the pain went away, I stayed up and listened to the song, I realized it will be alright. Like all things ms, it may get worse before it gets better. I coped the first time. Overdosed a few times, but I know better now. I CAN and WILL do it again, safely. Besides hospitals can be dangerous places these days. No, I like “YOU” will persevere, calm myself, suck it up and take another step on my long RRms journey and keep moving.
I have found that a belief in myself provides such strength and determination. I do not have to prove it to others and neither do “YOU”. All “YOU” really need to do is prove it to yourself, believe in yourself. Let those waves of pain and frustration hit “YOU”, then wash over “YOU”. Know that “YOU” coped once, “YOU” can do it again and again. Old-timers lived with this in the past. If they could and did, there is no reason why “YOU’ can not as well. It is not simple, sometimes it is not easy. Change things about yourself. Adapt, your habits. Make your circumstances, that in which “YOU” can live well with. Take things slowly. There is no hurry. Study yourself and this illness like “YOU” have never studied before. Learn what “YOU” can and can not do. “YOU” have many years to push your limits, to fall down and to get back up. There is a lot of figurative falling in this disease. Give yourself time, learn, learn, learn. There is no cure but there are ways to live a good life with this illness. Find them for “YOU. Implement your new found knowledge and improve your life. RRms is ever-changing, it never stops and stands still. Your learning will never end either With our illness we never stand firmly on solid ground, we are on shifting sand. Quicksand, slowly sinking. That is our fate. Some of what I could once do, I can do no more. Remarkably, things that I never would have thought I could do, but I have found that I can. Life is not cut and dry, birth to death is not a straight line. There are lots of twists and turns, with RRms, I feel there are even more.
One thing for certain though. “YOU” and I, CAN do ms. The monster (ms) may be wrapped around me, but I can wiggle and squirm. There is no reason to be held down and squashed by this illness. There are ways to loosen its grip, to live and be happy.
Royce (your ms writer)
find your ways for yourself, your answer is within you
