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[Fattius]

I apologize to whom it may concern, lol, I'm not well and to seek help, in my mind, has always been the hardest thing for me to do. My rage,resentment, and depression leads me often down a dark road. Everyone here has had a hand in solidifying the bond between sanity and irrationality on my part. Not able to cope with the darkness n e more. Thnx all

[carolek572 CommunityAmbassador]

Please seek help if it’s needed, and reach out to loved ones.

My prayers are with you.

[Allen5280]

I know where your comming from because in my darkest hours I couldn't bring myself to say, hey I need help. I still struggle with that as is. I know that dark place all to well myself.

[RoseySawyer]

I know it's hard to seek help but it's so very very recommended to seek it. I'll be sending prayers your way. I hope you get through this. ❤🌷

[jimeka]

Trying to crawl out of that dark place is very hard. It takes a lot of energy, sometimes that us with ms don’t have. I have been down that hole due to many reasons, and I have had to find something positive to hang onto. I have never taken antidepressants due to have restless leg syndrome so it’s been hard, but as for you Fattius, I know that you have a hidden talent. Start a journal, write down whenever you are feeling the darkness surrounding you. You are so gifted with words, write down the positives in a different colour, then flick back over the days and just see how many positives you actually have. Please keep us updated as to how you get on, blessings Jimeka 🦋

[erash]

I do hope u feel better soon. Please reach out for help if needed. 🌈

[goatgal]

Fattius Your posts read as a desperate cry for help. Please reach out by phone or to someone near by who can help pull you up from the low place you are in. All of us have had dark moments of the soul, so here you will find a lot of empathy. But at this moment you need someone closer, someone not in cyberspace. Please let us know how you fare. We care about your well being, physical and psychological.

[Jesmcd2 CommunityAmbassador]

Your picture is beautiful Fattius and I really hope you don't choose to leave us! Your not alone! It just feels like it.

Look at the beautiful woman beside you. She is right there with you, on the roller coaster. MS isn't easy, but with love and support, you can learn to accept it. 🤗💕

J🌠

[ssdw1958]

Find someone to talk to be it a pastor at your church, your doctor some one who will listen to you. I went down a dark path it didn’t help I was taking a medication that put me there. So I would check out your medicines they may be helping you not in a good way now in that case you do need to talk with your doctor. I spoke with someone from my sons church and that helped me. One other thing talk with your family if they are older let them know. Have them take some of the pressure of doing daily things around the house.

I hope this helps you. Have a good day!!

[4fishylady]

Dear Fattius, please don't give in and give up to that horrible depression. We've all been there. I did tell my Dr. and got medication for when I was there. It saved my life, with God's help. I went on Lexapro, but it took 6 weeks for it to fully take over, and my merciful Dr. gave me Alprozalam to take in addition to the Lexapro, until the Lexapro took hold. PLEASE, PLEASE get help. Medication does work and it is not forever, when you want to come off of it. I took it for over a year and got much, much better. Now, I have weaned myself completely off of all of it. (This is the 3rd time I have used it and come off of it.) I find that stress is my big issue. If I am under immense stress, I cannot cope. So, if/when that happens again, I will get back on something. I used Lexapro full strength, then broke the pills in half, then in quarters, taking that for several weeks, then quit. A pharmacist suggested that approach, and it worked for me. (I, personally, do not advise Cymbalta, unless the Dr. is adamant about it for your situation. It is much, much more difficult to come off of. It was partly the reason that I had to get onto Lexapro this time. Please read all you can about that drug before your agree to take it.) You are in my prayers.

[4fishylady]

One more thing, Fattius. By my beliefs, this should have been the first thing. I am a believer in Jesus Christ, and have been for over 60 years. I have known many people who have had their lives completely turned around by asking Jesus Christ to come into and take over their lives. I am praying that for you today. But, even those who have strong faith in Him, can succumb to depression. Many Bible stories relate to people who have dealt with depression and came out of it. You are not alone. Many of us MSers who are Christians will be praying for you. You are loved by us and also by the God Who created everything that is. Please allow Him and others to whom you reach out to help you overcome this time in your life.

[greaterexp]

You can see from these posts that you are cared about deeply. We all hope for you to get whatever help you need to get to the other side of this. You're in my prayers.

Please keep us up to date on how you're doing.

[BrandiandJosh]

Hey my sweet bubba I hope u knw I'm always here and always will be for u and my sis . I love yall and my beautiful niece and nephew with all my heart and soul! Dont ever forget u can always talk to me even tho I might not completely understand bc im not going through it im still here for u and will help u through this that is what sisters are for♡ u r the reason im on this site and ik I should write a post introducing myself and everything but it's hard with my social anxiety and ik it sounds crazy for it to be but it is the only reason it's easy for me to write now is bc im writing you , maybe soon I'll be able to introduce myself and everything or maybe when I call u in a bit u can help me? Well I LOVE U WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL NEVER FORGET THAT!♡!♡!

LOVE ALWAYS & 4EVER,

UR LITTLE SIS 😘