I am, apparently, a healthy 30-years-old woman. Apparently, because for the last 6 years and a half I've been suffering from unbearable pruritus ani. This is not even my formal diagnosis, but it's the term that covers my symptoms in the most accurate way. It has gone up and down over the years, no apparent triggers. During the last weeks it has just been unbearable and it's giving me an anxiety I won't be able to manage for much longer. Recently, I couldn't sleep and was on ice for 3 days in a row. I was so desperate that ended up going to A&E in Exeter, where I was working that week. They referred me to the walk-in clinic and it was the worst experience of my life - the nurse telling me she couldn't do anything and that I should go to the GP. Do you think I haven't been to the GP??? I've lost count of how many doctors I've seen during all these years. I'm currently waiting to do another test but that's my life - waiting while nothing works and I just suffer. I've tried all the possible creams. Done allergy tests. Avoided detergents, certain foods, etc. I've tried to do nothing. Relaxation. Nappy creams. Nothing works. Just the ice, which will give me a couple of minutes of relief. I know there must be "emergency" treatments for stubborn cases - corticosteroid injections, methylene blue injections... but apparently not for me. For me everything is "oh, I'm sorry to hear that. Unfortunately this is a very tricky condition. Let's just do this test to rule this out and in the meantime just try to be gentle with the area". IT'S NOT A BIT OF ITCH. IT'S AN UNBEARABLE ITCH THAT IS GOING TO KILL ME. I try to have a normal life but many times I've not been able to. I used to be very cheerful, active, sporty. I can't anymore. Will any doctor believe me and try to do something different to "waiting" if I tell them I'd rather kill myself than knowing this will continue for the rest of my life?