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Idk how I struck in HOCD but it’s killing me from 5 months. Its like on and off. I have been in relationships right now as well I’m in relationship but these intrusive thoughts are killing me so bad. Deep down i know i’m straight but I couldn’t get over these intrusive thoughts.
We need to find an irrefutable truth in order to fight the doubting disease that is OCD, and the best irrefutable truth I found so far is, it’s possible that OCD may do more harm than good.
Now you feel overwhelmed by doubts about your sexuality. Am I gay? Am I straight? And those obsessional doubts drive you 'crazy' because you can't settle the issue with absolute certainty, and you can't stop trying to settle the issue. However, you would like to settle the issue so you could direct your attention towards other subjects.
My suggestion would be at first to stop chasing frantically absolute certainties (exposure and response prevention exercises). We need to stop chasing chaotically absolute certainties to be open to the possibility we may not find any. It’s the only way for the prefrontal cortex to have some communication with the limbic system (fight-or-flight response centre) and put some sense into our behavior.
Once your mind becomes willing and able to recognize the possibility than OCD may do more harm than good, you'll notice a gradual decrease of the urge to wonder about your sexual orientation. It takes time, it takes efforts, but it works for me, even if my OCD theme is different. Whatever the themes, I think that OCD basic functioning is the same. I wish you the best with your recovery.
When you say straight are you talking about being gay or you know you wouldn't harm anyone. Please listen to me, 90 percent of people have intrusive thoughts. Humans have two different thoughts automatic thoughts, thoughts out of no where like intrusive thoughts and if your scared and anxious those thoughts will come because you fear them. Then you have your own thinking, what you are choosing to think of. Intrusive thoughts are just thoughts, they don't define you. If people read a serial killer book they would also have them thoughts, the only difference is the person with ocd puts meaning on them. They are just thoughts and you should just think of them as just that. If I thought I was a unicorn it does not make me a unicorn. People who enjoy harming people, they couldn't be further away from each other. One gets excited and enjoys thinking and being like that, the ocd person gets repelled and hates it. Remember people who enjoy harming don't worry about it and ask for help.
In cornell University its been a fact that no one is 💯 gay or straight.
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