Living in prison Failure from every side

[Whitelove]

Today was my paper and I did not eat for past week. I eat something very strangely that thing with which I do a lot of compulsions.so I have no concentration nor study even I did not sleep on my bed because of thoughts.I slept for 4 nights in ground.So when I enter in the exam hall my head was blocked.I can't write there is nothing in my mind because I didn't study. But even small things that I read before exam I can't recall. So I try to cheat and the examiner cancel my paper. I want to die but I can't suicide.My Education my aim everything ruined.People became success and get high grades and success. Ocd blocked everything. I came out from hall crying.

[17Rugby]

Sorry you are suffering. Are you getting any support from your school / college? Are they aware you are suffering from OCD and looking at accommodations to support this?

[Mcfly64]

Hello you need to get help from a therapist specialising in ocd. 17Rugby is exactly right in what they said as well.

[TomFed]

The only way to heal from OCD is to stop compulsions. You do ERP and eradicate most of them, and the hell's wheel of OCD will start unravelling onto itself pretty fast. There is light, but for starters you need help from professional therapist who specialises in OCD / CBT treatment. Nowadays with apps like NOCD, you can find professional help online as well.

[Sallyskins]

Explain about your OCD to your school, college or university. Let them know how OCD has affected your ability to study.

It's important to eat properly while studying - the brain needs food! And to get enough sleep and exercise. I know that OCD can put barriers in the way of healthy living, but healthy living makes it easier to fight the OCD.

If the school or college is sympathetic, then it might be possible to take your exam again when you feel more ready for it.

It is possible to study and pass exams while OCD has you in its grip - I managed to get my degree while suffering badly from OCD. I didn't do as well as I should have done, but I didn't do too badly.

And there are other areas of study and work you could perhaps explore.

[Whitelove]

No one believe! No support! I am living in such society where mental illness is so shameful...

[Lauragbr]

where do you live? I’m so sorry you are having such a hard time.