Recovery

[MyOCD123]

Hey everyone!

It’s been quite a while since I wrote anything on here and honestly sometimes it’s a painful to reminder to open this app. It can remind me how far I have come but also of the most difficult period of my life. I become fearful that I will lose myself and go back to that dark time. There are times I feel the intrusive thoughts creeping back in and start to panic but I have been doing my best to continue to embrace uncertainty and ride out the uncomfortable feelings. Today I hung out with a friend who I used to have very difficult intrusive thoughts with and so it has been triggering to be around her without than engaging in my checking compulsions. Tonight I gave in and texted to check on her and I guess my point in sharing this is to show how recovery isn’t perfect. Does anyone else still struggle in recovery? I would love to hear from some of you.

[Mumuli]

yes，you can do it !

[Godisgood_]

Good luck!!

[aadak18]

I think anyone who says they don’t struggle in recovery is not being truthful

I actually don’t love the word recovery because it implies that somehow we can fully “recover.” I think that the word management fits much better.

[3BirdLover]

Oh yes, yes, yes!! Sometimes I feel I'm "over it" and then it comes knocking at my door. I don't know that we ever really are "healed" completely...we just learn to deal with it with the tools that we have learned. Sometimes I will go months or more with virtually nothing, then boom...there it is. Keep on working and don't beat yourself up because you gave in to a compulsion....next time you won't