I need help

[Bobbybob123]

Does anyone know what “magic ocd” is. I have been suffering for the past 6 months. Its getting hard for me to live. I don’t want to live anymore. There is so much I can explain. I just want someone to respond and help me get through this.

[thyroidmom84]

I have it, I’ve had it in milder forms for decades but quite a bit over the last 4 years. For me, it comes in cycles of intensity. When it’s minimal, I feel pretty good and I’m hoping your’s is that way also. Don’t give up. Are you on any medication and/or in therapy?

[Bobbybob123 in reply to thyroidmom84]

I am not on any medication. I had a therapist who used to hand out sheets of papers to me, he was no help. Basically my ocd makes me feel like I’m a completely different person. It makes me feel so shitty, with so much anxiety and doubt. It’s so hard to explain. I just want this pain to stop

[thyroidmom84 in reply to Bobbybob123]

As someone who hates the idea of medication, Paxil helped (and in many ways saved) me immensely. The therapy not as much but I still go.

[thyroidmom84 in reply to Bobbybob123]

Mine is linked to my health anxiety- “If I don’t do this an even number of times myself or someone in my family will get x”

[Bobbybob123 in reply to thyroidmom84]

Do you have an alternative Instagram that I can maybe message. I want to get into depth and know how you’ve came to feeling bettee

[thyroidmom84 in reply to Bobbybob123]

I just private messaged you

[LuvSun]

I have magical OCD. I have always thought that I can control certain things by doing certain rituals, etc. It’s hard to give this up because you really think you have control but I know it’s not the truth. Hang in there- your life is definitely worth living😊

[alyssuh]

I do as well. It sucks. But the more you defy it, as hard as it is, the weaker it gets. I constantly have thoughts of horrible things or death happening to my loved ones and i feel i can control whether or not it happens. I know its irrational and the things i see as “connections” to it becoming true are ridiculous but its hard to get over. I sometimes feel like you do but we can make it and be stronger than it

[Bobbybob123]

thank you both for your response. For me, my ocd drives me away from who I am. It’s like if you eliminated my ocd, you would be left with the myself. The feeling that I get after I “compluse” is me. It’s hard to explain but I think you can understand it.

[Buginmybrain]

Definitely. I feel that magical thinking is part of all types of OCD...it is often what pushed us to a compulsion. If I do or don't do this, then this will happen. I actually just posted a video demonstrating how my mind will mess with me about eating healthy or not and the strange unrelated thing that will happen if I disobey, in other words if I don't complete the compulsion.