As weird as this sounds I know I am not the only one.

[teen_anxiety]

Does anyone else have a character they made up in their head that they retreat to sometimes and pretend to be sometimes? I know it sounds weird and maybe even mental sometimes but I am no longer ashamed of this (well just a little it is embarrassing to be caught pretending at 16) because I realized it helps me 1) understand how I am feeling when I portray this thru someone else 2) it helps me to use my imagination and brain in a good way when I am not at my best I can make my character's life suck and then I can feel like my life is the worst thru her and then I am able to let out some emotion thru her and 3) it helps me find a solution/get better or get over whatever is bothering me because I am able to make her solution better so yes it is awkward and embarrassing but I have realized how much it has helped me in the past. (sadly though whenever her life seems good I always seem to make it bad again and I can not figure out if I 1) like the drama 2) am always feeling this way 3) I just like solving it or4) it just makes it more interesting (so I guess this goes along with number 1 in a way.))

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When I was sixteen I used to read Ian Fleming Books, James Bond and would wonder what it would be like to live that sort of live. I began to travel and went to many countries that were mentioned in spy stories. It lasted for a year or so and that was the end of that. My problem was I started visiting The old Soviet Union and I had a high security score and I had to be seem by security before and after the holiday, to be honest I had to grow up.

You have your life to Lead, enjoy life you have why grow up to quickly

BOB