Been a while.......

[Chrysanthemum]

Hello to everyone. It's been a while and I've been sort of okay, no medication but feel sort of like just ticking along in my own little bubble. Content enough but not really going out or doing anything, no interaction with anyone else and no one to talk to. At the age of 63 I feel that's quite sad!

I am struggling a bit more lately with trying to do anything at all and all I want to do is lay in bed. It's a relief to go to bed when the evening comes. Hobbies are more or less at a standstill. I don't really want to go back on any medication because I don't think it's easy to see the doctor at the moment and it gives me an uncomfortable feeling even going to the surgery. Sometimes I have that don't care attitude these days and also I feel I'm too old for anything to matter any more. I sometimes wish I had something so that I could go to sleep longer. Not good but I'm writing this now as its my only way of communicating and feel this may help. All this mess the world is in doesn't help,things.

[Hidden]

As we get older things become stuck and if not careful boredom will set in. You mention hobbies what were they, there may be chances to join a group who has the same interests as yourself.

In the next week I will turn seventy and this blasted virus has really stopped us doing what we enjoy. We love History and visiting English Heritage, National Trust and Historic Houses and their gardens only some of the gardens are open although the properties themselves are still closed so that has put a spanner in the works. We have a Library so we are looking at all the guide books we have been to in the past.

We have our Dog Pax we take him for walks on the beach or in the countryside

What are your Hobbies

BOB

[Chrysanthemum in reply to Hidden]

Hi, thanks for your reply. I had a lovely greyhound , Max, until last February and I still miss him a lot. He was my companion. My hobbies are painting, crafts, walking and gardening. Oh and lots of reading because reading requires little effort and that's what keeps me going at the moment.

[Hidden in reply to Chrysanthemum]

You seem to.have plenty hobbies going on. It is really sad when we cannot get on with our interests although personally I find if I get myself in my picture books it helps my day

I have a Congenital Short Term Memory Disorder and because of that I can suffer some word blindness so my books are all Pictoral now as my eyes also have problems when reading script, I have cataracts and problems with the lens of the eyes. So now I have to keep resting my eyes.

You need to look at your hobbies as a positive activity, it is now good pushing and pushing your concentration to do more than it can do you need to do what you enjoy and take regular breaks

BOB

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Ive been where u r.

Things will get better for u.

Ur body n mind just need time to readjust to no medication.

Be patient with yourself.

Glad ur here with all of us.😊

[Chrysanthemum in reply to Hidden]

Thanks for your reply. Means a lot.

[Beautifulrainbow in reply to Chrysanthemum]

Hi there, I'm sorry you feel like you do, but things will get better for you I'm sure. Having no medication at all, means that you have a strong mind and you want to do things by yourself, which sounds to me that your trying everything you can. I've been where you are, and at times still am, it's hard, I know, I too want the evenings to come so that I can go to bed, but there's always the next day to cope with. Please try to engage in your hobbies again, and take a lovely walk in the fresh air. When I read posts like your I always think if only that person lived near me, so we could try to get well together, because we know how difficult things can be for us. People who are lucky not to suffer mental health don't always get it, which is very sad.

Take care and I hope you feel more like your self soon. X

[Chrysanthemum in reply to Beautifulrainbow]

Thankyou for your message. I so wish I had someone like you to have as someone to talk with, walk with, etc. But I never have...yet! The only person I could talk to was a counsellor I had a couple of years ago now but that messed my head up a bit at the time because I was having a rough time at work and had that to deal with at the time.

This low mood of mine has been on and of for the most of my adult life. I've been on different meds and back in the late seventies I had a good med but only because it used to make me into a zombie and I used to sleep for ages. I used to take them when I needed them, not every day. I've spent my life taking tablets to get through low times, even if it's just cocodamol. Pathetic really.

How do you cope? What are your hobbies?

[Beautifulrainbow in reply to Chrysanthemum]

Ah bless you I really do feel for you, because I do know what your going through and it's not nice at all. My mood is like yours, where I can be OK for a little while, but then for the silliest of thing I've gone back into my depressive mode,, and it certainly isn't nice. My hobbies are D. I Y painting and decorating. But probably like you I have to be in the right frame of mind. It's not pathetic at all, I understand totally, because I do the same thing. It just makes you feel better for a while, but deep down we know it does nothing to the way we are feeling. Oh I do hope you get someone you can talk to and trust.