Trauma Group Struggles

[Starlight_ftm]

My second session of trauma symptom stabilisation was today and I spent most of it in a mild dissociative state. When I was asked questions I’d go so red because I was embarrassed and felt vulnerable. It was interesting when I could hear - spoke about the brain and what happens after trauma. Afterwards I said to the psychologist I was struggling (which was amazing I did that rather than rush off). She was so nice and sat with me and chatted but then said “how much have you taken in what I’ve just said” and I replied really all over the place because I realised I wasn’t able to hear and absorb what she was saying. I went across the road after we chatted a few moments but again had to be extra aware that no cars coming because I lost that awareness of myself.

Treated self to a burger on the way home and put music loud in car to bring myself round. I am sooo tired maybe best thing is a nap! The sad fact is once I leave professionals, people around me don’t realise what been through. It’s very isolating in the struggle but I guess that’s ok as long as I keep the fight.

[MAS_Nurse]

Hello and well done Starlight_ftm. You should be very proud of yourself, you stayed for all of the session and stuck at it. It doesn't matter that no one else knows what you have been through - You know and that's the most important thing and now we know too.

Well done and every good wish to you.

I am sure the other members wish to congratulate you too.

MAS Nurse.

[chbale]

Well done for sticking at it. If you have professional help and a counsellor you get on with it's a massive step forward. People around you might not fully understand what's going on but will probably be supportive - you can't expect them to be experts in your condition but they'll be sympathetic if nothing else. Good luck with it, keep going to your sessions, it sounds like it's helping.