on my own again?

iv'e never done anything like this before.i'm 55 years old and have problems in relationships.when i'm in a relationship. I feel sick in the pit of my stomach,and silly thought race around my head.saying I must end the relationship but their is know aparant reason to and this increases the more I try to fight it.iv'e hurt so many people over the years because of this anxity.iv'e tried councilling i.e c.b.t councelling.one to one therapy, hypnotherapy.iv'e tried steraline.i'm now 55 and just ended another relationship.iv'e no children and feel lonely.and their is no point in my life.and would be happy if it ended sooner rather than later.

[MAS_Nurse]

Hell dc55 and welcome to the forum. I am sorry to hear things are so difficult for you at the moment. It may help to take some of the pressure off yourself by having a break from relationships for a while and concentrating on yourself. Do things you enjoy, see friends and go out to places of interest. Think of things you are interested in and take it from there. You are valued and you are not alone. You will meet someone when you are more settled. Be kind to yourself. Have a look at the pinned posts to the right of the screen [crisis support] and please stay on the forum for support. Best wishes.

[Faithfull]

Yea same hear only own again 53 one month after split just relived I was as lonely with them .

[Vrt14]

I want to live in a community with other people but have my own apartment but in a big building where people have a common space and participate in activities together, I think that's called intentional community.