So weeks out of hospital and a week since having my first check up;
Last week i was like Ive come away from my check up and i still have a load of questions/comments and feeling "will i ever know or have all the answers i want or need?!"...
Im still always feeling sickly but thinking as I've said its my IBS/intolerances and they've got worse :/
and I'm moaning usually always to myself under my breath haha my scalp/head/skin is very over sensitive, my skin seems very itchy and sore and i need to wash my hair like every two days max as it seems to feel really sore etc
My kidneys (mostly my right) are sore
I had issues with my kidneys before this and was under investigation with constant water/kidney infections and as soon as they tried to ween me off strong drugs in hospital and tried ibrufopen my right kidney started to hurt... I mentioned this and they said they'd check my last blood results and said no everything's fine, said some medical stuff as i assume meant my kidney function showed up fine!
Frustrating ay; so as usual or even more now i constantly have kidney pains and still constantly getting told there fine! (I wish they were!)
So I'm still really boney to (always been slim but never been skin and bones) after my body fort off this horrible disease and used all my fat/muscle I'm finding it really hard to put anything on
Especially as i cant move/walk properly and an attitude of everything's getting to me lately and i feel like people don't know what I've been through and going through so everyday is frustrating and I'm like whats normal; well as normal for us recovering.
One day my spirits are great then the next I'm so
I still have this thing thats at the back of my head/neck/spine...
This pain/uncomfortable/pressure feelings
That stops me being able to lean back on things or slouch on the sofa etc :/
When i get cold the bottom of my back is agonisingly painful and also my spine;mainly at the top and i really shake which makes it worse...
If i didn't like the cold before my body hates it even more now
When i was in hospital After two weeks of been in & out of consciousness etc having my cafater out ... I had pysios and was helped up and on my feet... (Sort of) I was literally like an old woman.. I scuttled my feet, and had help to go in the bathroom
Every part of me hurt and i couldn't believe how much my body looks like its wasted away
I didn't eat for a week and half but pumped with so many fluids my body swelled up,
Once i came home noticing every day how boney i am is so surreal and hurts everywhere :/
Anyway.. So I've noticed today (I'm right handed) theres a tiny bit of muscle in the top of my right arm 😂🙈👌🏼 seems a funny thing to be happy about
Oh i don't sleep or rather its really hard to sleep
No matter what time i get up or what i do in the day i still cant sleep properly at night until the early hours of the next day ☹
... So today I've woke up early and decided im gonna try my damnedest to keep moving, keep motivating myself and stop being negative no matter what!
I wanna be more determined, positive and stronger than i even was before!!!
So I'm gonna eat right, drink mountains of water, move as much as i can, stop waiting around for people and reach out/go to them and chase all them docs appointments!
(And definitely get out of this moaning state) 🙄😂😝
Have a great christmas everyone! 💋🎁🎀✨🎄🙏🏼🙌🏼