Hello all, I am here again! The problem is I can't sleep. Was up all night, not knowing what to do with myself. I should have gone to play table tennis this morning, but since my game has gone downhill over the past few months I felt no incentive to go and I also felt too shattered. So when it was time to get up I went to bed and slept for a couple of hours. Of course I am worried, of course I am scared, but not to that extent that it should stop me from sleeping. I do not seem to be able to get on with anything. I shall walk this Sunday only because I have to, as I am leading a group of 20 people and I do not want to let them down. Otherwise I would probably not go. I have moments when I just want to cry. I have always coped well with the shocks and knocks in life, but this is getting to me. What can I do to get me out of this negativity? Does anyone else feel like that? So many of you seem to soldier on so bravely. My fist injection is due on Wednesday.