Am I suffering from depression?

Hello Andy

I am here again. After having psyched myself up and prepared myself for my first injection today I was told there is no leakage. Of course, no injection. The scan still showed a swelling and fluid between the layers of the retina, but apparently there no leakage now and no change from the previous scan done on the 12th August when I was told by another doctor that I had wet AMD. The FA a week later showed a slight leakage, according to the technician. I should be pleased as punch at having a reprieve until next month When I have return for anther check-up., but I cannot help wondering - is it wet or dry? Should I have had the treatment to prevent further damage? Should I ask for a second opinion? But how would I go about doing that? Please advise.

Thank you for that, jayral. At the moment I need all the support I can get. I think it is the waiting and uncertainty that has got to me having waited 11 weeks from my first diagnosis at the optician ( when I was told I had a serious eye condition and would lose my central vision but needed no treatment at the moment and was not referred) to my first injection on Wednesday. It has seemed like a battle to get to this point. And while I waited while my eyesight got steadily worse I became obsessed with checking my eyes several times a day. It just took over. That is probably why I got myself into this miserable state. So yes, I will try and relax. Got a reasonable amount of sleep last night and I feel better this morning. Thank you!

Oh you poor, poor thing, eyesright, having cried for two weeks and two nights. I just have weepy moments that come out of the blue, having always been the sort of person who bottles everything up. I speak very little to my friends, keeping my inner thoughts to myself - being regarded by them as a bit of a loner. But that too is stressful and sometimes I get angry or impatient with them.

You hit the nail on the head when you say that the foundation is a bit shaky. The waiting, the uncertainty of it all gets to me. Because during my FA the hospital concentrated so much on my right eye (my good with dry AMD, though it is far from good) I now I fear that it is turning to wet too. You see, here I go again, assuming and being obsessed with the whole miserable thing. I hopefully get to know the facts on Wednesday.

But I have taken notice of what you and others on the forum have said. I tried to relax myself before going to bed last night and I actually got a reasonable night's sleep. So thank you again.

Update, Wednesday. No injection. Please read my update to squinty and to the Macular society. Any advice please.

Thank you and best wishes to .all of you who have supported me

Good Morning, Steph. Sending me your love touched me greatly. You are still so young to face this awful condition, although you may say, it could be worse, which I suppose is true. I am at the other end of the scale being more than 50 years your senior. I thank you for your kind thoughts. It all helps to bring things into perspective and I wish you all all the best on your journey.

Wow you brave girl what positive advice you give💜 Hugs from Squinty xx

Thank you, hollyg - and now I am getting all weepy again.

I am so sorry to hear of your loss of a wonderful career. I understand how hard that must have hit you and how alone you must have felt, although being well past retirement age I am spared the anxiety of finding work.

I am known by my friends as far too independent for my own good despite heading for my 80th birthday, a no-nonsense, tough cookie who gets on with life. Little do they know how vulnerable I feel as I keep my inner thoughts to myself. I know if I were to talk to them about my inner struggle they would not understand and would only see it as an opportunity to tell me of their own petty little aches and pains.

So it is good to hear from people who do understand and who have gone, and are still going, through the roller-coaster journey of AMD. Thank you so much.

Thank you squinty. I did do my walk today and the group enjoyed it and so did I. Now I wait for Wednesday to come along so that I will learn what is planned for me. I can then adjust my activities around it.

I'll keep my fingers crossed for you that you may not need too many injections. I send you my best wishes.

Dear squinty. Had prepared myself mentally for my first injection, but the consultant said there was no leakage, though the swelling and fluid between the retinal layers is still present. He insisted it was dry AMD in both eyes and asked me to come back in 4 weeks time to check it out. The previous doctor I saw about 3 weeks ago said it was wet AMD in my left eye and the FA showed slight leakage, according to the technician. I still wonder why so much time was spent on my right eye during the FA instead of the left which is the "bad eye". Although I should be pleased for the reprieve I cannot help wondering whether I should seek a second opinion. How do I go about it? Ps, I live in South Yorkshire. Do you know of anyone else who got such contradicting and confusing information?

Best wishes

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