62 and feeling alone

[Connie621955]

Hi I have been treated for the last year for large cell type B lymphoma I have had six chemo treatments and 23 radiation treatments to clear up a couple of small spots on my spine, I am really scared I know nothing about my disease as I have been scare to do any research on my own, I just sit around most of the day worrying about the out come of my disease I am hoping by talking to people in my same situation might health me get over some of my fears

[Tinkerbellcgy]

Connie, I realize you are fearful and it can be scary to go through this when you are on your own. I have had 3 experiences in Cancer Land since 2008 and, for the most part, I did it on my own.

My suggestion to alleviate your fears would be to contact the Canadian Cancer Society as well as the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society of Canada asking them to provide them with all the literature they can on lymphoma and, in particular the type which you have been diagnosed with. Next, start Googling lymphoma and read up on lymphoma from reliable sources such as the Mayo Clinic. Check with your Cancer Centre to see if there is a psychologist on staff that you could speak with about your feelings and fears. Lastly, talk to your medical providers. Ask questions. Lots of questions to assist in your understanding of your diagnosis.

Education is knowledge. Reach out to anyone who could possibly help you. Be persistent in your quest for knowledge about this disease that you will now be co-existing with.

As cancer patients, we all need to be our own advocates. We all need to be proactive in our approach to treatment, our cancer education, our fears and feelings surrounding our cancer and our future living with cancer.

Finally, we are here to help you wherever we are able to. Connie, you can do this. We are all rooting for you! 🌞

[denmanjemima]

Yes as Tinkerbell says "We are all rooting for you" Yes the BC Cancer Agency does have a counselling service so must other provinces as well as a large library. They can be very helpful especially if you live close enough to visit. I live rurally and have had difficulty getting information. This site has been helpful because talking to others or just listening gives me a sense that I am not alone. Living with a cancer diagnosis takes courage. Friends smile too much and the feeling of "other" can make for lonely wakeful nights. Keep contributing and we are seeing and rooting for you.