Thought I'd share a pick of lil' Milo who has decided she wants to live in my jacket permanently. 😂
Rough time at the moment still, and many others have it similar or worse. I've only got a couple of weeks left working in emergency before I trade it in for a while in neonatal intensive care. Boy I must like a challenge. It'll be a very different ball game.
In the meanwhile, I've had some annual leave, in part, because work thought I wasn't really well of late. But I can't just wait to get better as I say, because that won't happen, I just have to soldier on. Little Milo 😍 is going to help cheer me up I'm sure.
Im in limbo as both rheumatology and neurology have passed me up North now. Still in wait for my AZA for the last two months though. At least I have got my antiepileptics this week. 🎉 But couldn't risk going on holiday with my friends so been keeping indoors mainly.
There's one GP, who at least is trying a bit, after all others gave up as per usual. The problem is there is always so much sickness going on it's hard to make sense of what's what. I'm on an urgent cancer pathway now, which I am doing my best to distract myself. Again what's lupus and what's something else is always anyone's guess.
I've picked myself up a little this week. I know it sounds stupid but I get a bit stuck feeling like I am such a screw up and failure. I know it's wrapped in family still refusing to accept my diagnoses and still shaming and guilt tripping me in many ways. I am trying to escape mentally from that, but it's hard to persevere and not give in to bad coping mechanisms and let the haters win.
But I have Milo, I have Hunter (my wee dog), and work which are all positive and I feel very grateful for. And hopefully I'll get some more answers soon. In the meantime, keep helping people get the answers they deserve in emergency.
Bless you all and have a good week,