Can’t sleep. My legs are killing me!! Burning aching thighs. Pain deep in what feels like my bones. My legs feel heavy but like they’re wasting away like I’ll wake up in the morning and not be able to use them. I’ve got tingling like pins and needles down to my feet.
My brains is doing over time.... what’s happening to my body, I just want a break.
This week has been tough. I just want to sleep.
I’ve been awake since 6am.
I think it’s the actual realisation, this is my life now. This is happening. I have something that can’t be fixed, just hopefully managed (used in loose terms.) I have to get used to this now and accept it. Find ways to manage it.
I’m going to get good days and I’m going to get bad. But I’m at the beginning of this new chapter in life and I’m struggling to adjust and I guess that’s ok.
I’m just going to cry if I need to cry. Have sleepless nights and just be tired the next day, it’s not the end of the world. But it is bloody exhausting!!! But I will deal with it and carry on.
Sorry to vent.