It seems that's all I ever feel. Sometimes I feel so exhausted for no apparent reason and I don't feel like doing anything but I know that's not a choice I have because I have my grandchildren to take care of.
I recently move to live close by my children although moving here wasn't a plan. I haven't seen my Dr in over a year and now I'm moving once again so seeing a Dr yet again isn't a choice I have at this point.
I've been self medicating by drinking which is new to me because I haven't drank before that much but now I'm drinking a few drinks before I go to bed.
I'm not sleeping well and abput a month ago I hurt my back, went to ER and they told me I have onset arthritis in my back. I'm not sure what that really means but I'm at the point where the pain that I feel is driving me crazy. I feel as if whenever I talk with friends or family about my pain and the severity, I feel as if they think I'm lying but how bad it is because I still do things arnd the house, cooking, cleaning and taking care of my grandkids. Sometimes though I get pain in my knees from going up and down stairs all day.
There are days where I feel so so tired, in so much pain in my legs but it feel as if I have bruises or a Charley horse and I can't stand the pain but I've been living with it for so long I really don't know what to do about it. Sometimes I'm depressed because I feel the pain will never stop. I'm tired of it.