So I'm off to see the rheumatologist this afternoon. This is my first visit in 3 years. 3 years ago I was admitted onto a medical ward, because I was having a really bad flare, but I didn't know what it was. The rheumy then told me about Lupus, I had never heard of it, and that she was 90% sure I had it. However my ANA came back negative so the rheumy then discharged me, because I was feeling a lot better, saying that they think it might of been a viral infection. Since then I have buried my head in the sand trying to dismiss all my pains and symptoms. But its got to the point were I cant, and also I worried that I'm doing a lot of damage to my body. I have constant protein in my urine, but my bloods always say my kidney function is good, and I have hypertension so I'm on ramipril. I also have a lot of symptoms that seem typical of Lupus hair loss, sensitivity to sun, rash's, joint pain, brown ridges in my nails I could go on. However what if this is all in my head, and these are just other things that are not related to Lupus. I feel at a loss and worried about this app today.