Apologies for my moaning again but I'm soooo frustrated! Went back to see my doc today for yesterday's blood results which have come back "normal" again. Even she could tell I was flaring, visible butterfly rash, entire body covered with the livedo reticularis, very severe fatigue, headache, nausea, weight loss and hurting everywhere. She's phoning my consultant to get him to see me as she wanted to admit me. I can't believe I feel so ill yet my bloods still say otherwise? I slept for 12hrs last night yet still wiped out. I'm also feeling very depressed which given my illness is to be expected and very tearful but the worst part is the guilt, feeling guilty because I'm sick and guilty that I can't preform my motherly and wifely duties. My son is 9 and very sensitive and I just feel so bad for him as I can't always smile and pretend that I'm ok. How do you guys cope with this? I don't know what I'd do without this site as you provide the support that only a lupus sufferer can! God bless to you all.