Sorry if that sounds selfish compared to what so many are you going through.
My partner was diagnosed with limited stage 3 small cell lung cancer in July 2014, 8 weeks after having open heart surgery. He had 6 rounds of chemo, radiology for 6 weeks and PCI ( I apologise if that's not correct). He didn't suffer many side effects - more from the radiology than chemo. Well apart from the blackouts - once at the top of the stairs ... That was scary our poor 10 year old son witnessed that 😓.
Anyway, I digress. The treatment worked !! His tumour has been asleep since January. The chemo shrunk it and radiology zapped it.
For the last 9 months all he has done is wait for 'it' to wake up and is still very depressed - I finally persuaded him to see a counsellor about a month ago and he is slowly fighting his way back from the depths of depression.
Yesterday was an amazing day. His oncologist said how amazed he was, it's still asleep and he even used the word remission and said if he gets to 2 years without it waking up then it probably won't ! We should feel over the moon. We were talking earlier and he said he feels like he should feel astounded but we don't. Believe me I do know how lucky he and therefore me and our family are. However, I just don't know. I just cannot believe it. This wasn't what the first said would happen. Again I apologise, I really don't know how or what too feel. I know I should just be positive but it's so hard to adapt again and too totally rid of the certainty. Is this normal, for him and me ?
Feeling very confused xxx