Well here I still am after an upper right lobectomy and four cycles of chemo final one yesterday I know I have two rubbish weeks to go through with numb feet and general aches and unexplained pains .However I am so relieved now .I know longer currently need to go to chemoland where everyone one was lovely but not a place anyone wants to be .My work colleagues are all doing the mud run in central park Plymouth on Sunday am in the name of cancer research because of my predicament .They were shocked that a non smoker should get this disease some have actively tried to give up smoking since my diagnosis which is a good thing .If I was well enough I would do it with them .But maybe next year instead but well or not just for their efforts I will be going to take pictures and support them ,which is good .
I have asked my consultant for a scan after a year as I know I will at that point be anxious that this cancer will show up somewhere else, Plymouth just wait for symptoms I would prefer to get ahead of the game an xray may show a new lung cancer recurrence but not a brain liver adrenal gland spread .I don't want too many scans as they can cause cancers but I would like one at this point.
So just got to wait and see now pick up the pieces from where I left off ,discover what lung surgery has truly left me with and get back on a fitness regime whilst it is cheaper for me, lose a bit of weight get as healthy as I can be .The big question is do I go back to work? Or do I retire I am leaving those conversations with my boss until September but I will have to make a decision when I have had some recovery time .i am 55 so it would currently be early retirement but the job I have is stressful long days and I worry now that they may bring on health issues, but I would miss all the social elements to my work place which would really disappear once you have left the work place ,Hard to even beginning to think about . I have worked since I was seventeen .