Hello all - new to online support...

[RosalieVonDee]

I started seeking out online support because I dont get to see my shrink all that often and I only have a few friends that really "get it" . I have to much emotion stored up in me and have too much in my head I have to get out. I have GAD dysthymia chronic depression and ptsd and addiction issues. I have a lot to say but first Ill just start with I am tired of feeling scared all the time and that this is hopeless. I havent thought much about suicide as much as I have the last few months. Its sill ideation - but its different now. Im coming up on my birthday this Thursday and for weeks any thoughts around that is that I want to OD. I have told my friends who get it these thoughts so I am getting them out in the open - I just wish they would stop sounding like a good idea. I have no intention of acting out on these thoughts, this is just the first time I really thought about what the results would be and who exactly I would hurt and if I could "live" with that. More often than not I am just furious all the time, fearful, scared, helpless and empty. Thanks for listening yall.

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Hello & Welcome RosalieVonDee

You seem to have a lot going of and I hope your shrink as you call them is slowly helping you unravel it all

I think addictions can come hand in hand with anxiety as well as the thoughts you are having and keep talking about them as I believe it is when we stop talking about them when it gets more serious , expressing how we feel does help

Happy Birthday for Thursday and I hope you let this anxiety know it is not invited to your celebrations , try shutting the door on it just for one day while you enjoy yourself

Take Care x

[Ann10]

I'm sorry that you are having these issues. You will have to fight these negative thoughts with positive thoughts. Realize that you are not alone and many have to redirect their emotions daily.