I am looking for someone that is going through the same thing/s. Panic attacks and depression.

[AlexTaKia]

Hello,

This is my very first post. I am dealing with attacks and depression. This month makes it a year. I had my very first attack on a bus, one of my worst experiences. I was freaking out, felt like I was not apart of the world or myself. Stayed in the hospital and at continuous Dr. Appointments. I was scared, very scared! Had no idea of what was going on, could not sleep, I distanced myself from family and friends. My thoughts and feelings had me thinking that something is going to happen to me. Felt like I was going to faint and pass out. It is and can be very dark and frightening.... I do see a therapist, take meds off and on. I do try CBT , write, exercise and much more but I do not stick with it like I should. I have been feeling those feelings and thoughts again, I use to have a talk show that I stopped doing for a year and I going to restart my show in a week. I am excited but then I get anxious, thoughts and feelings make me sad again and I feel like something is going to happen bad. I hate it, I hate feeling sad, anxious. I want to feel normal, I want to live and enjoy life. I do feel like I am reliving the past, decisions and I am now 40. I just want some more understanding about this, why??

[snow-13]

You said it yourself...your thinking of the past , it's all about today, that's all u have. Get back into ur cbt n exercise. You deserve to be good to u x anxiety robs us of joy , peace and contentment x tell it it's not welcome back!! Your moving on and great to get back into ur talk show. Believe in ur self and if u can watch Joyce Meyer...positive thinking in u tube. Don't let anything hold u back, there is only one you and God loves u just the way u are. You have nothing to fear..keep taking little steps in the right direction. Hold ur head up..look how far u have come. Leave the past and stick with all the good in ur life today. Yes anxiety will try get back at u, stay positive, tell

It no chance ..not welcome. Totally understand ur feelings but if u give Joyce Meyer positive series a go on u tube..u will really get so much from it. X be good to u today, x

[AlexTaKia in reply to snow-13]

Snow-13

I really appreciate you taking the time out of your schedule and reaching out to me with this motivational words of encouragement. It gets hard sometimes and I don't understand why X comes back with a vengeance. My mind messes with me and shows bad images about me. It feeds on my fears. Today was a bad day for me, and I just needed to reach out. I am going to use my show and reach out to others. I know that I am not alone, just feel like the only one dealing with this and then I question the Dr. , therapist, family and friends because I can not believe how bad this can be. No one should have to deal, experience or live with. I thank you again for reaching out to me.

I did start back up today exercising and I will check out Joyce Meyer on u tube. I will also start reading Russ Harris book again called Reality Slap.