The day after Christmas my dad was admitted into the hospital. At first it didn't seem like it affected me. Up til then I wasn't having anxiety or depression. But a couple of days after he'd still been in the hospital I started to get anxiety. And now I have the panic attacks under control but what I cannot stand is I'm always feeling not myself. Like my head is in a fog. I'm not so much dizzy. But it feels like when you've been running on a treadmill or and eliptical and you get off you feel like your walking weird. No clue if that makes sense to anyone. But I constantly feel like this. I start spring semester on Monday the 12th. I'm just really nervous about going and getting up that day and not feeling like I can do it. I guess what im saying is does anyone else feel like that ? Like dizzy and headaches. I see my GP the day after school starts ! :/ hopefully I can make it through the first day. TUESDAY I've decided to get back onto meds. Which I've been fighting so long. Talking to my therapist it seems like right now is a good time to do so. I just have a fear of becoming like my mom. My whole life she took anxiety and depression meds. She relies on them. Well anyway I just needed to vent.