Just want to feel okay...

[1DMichelle]

I'm at a motel with my dad, supposed to be happy and sleeping so I can actually enjoy through vacation but instead it's 5:17am and I'm riddled with anxiety, hurt, and want to cry for no reason and I don't understand why. I didn't feel like this before we got here, sure I'm used to anxiety but the day before we left I felt.. better then normal, the ride here I was happy for the most part until I got tired and it was hot.

But now I'm here and can't sleep because of these feelings.

I tried crying only made me feel worse, tried a hot bath, helped a little but not enough, took a walk outside to get some air to the vending machines, that seemed to definitely not help. So I've just sat here watching tv which helps for brief moments but then I feel like crying again and also want to throwing up...

I just want to feel okay....

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hi michelle, sorry your not feeling too good, does dad know how you are feeling, i see you suffer from a number of things, have you been to the doctors about how you are feeling? if you have had a long journey it will make you feel worse especially if you are not sleeping well, my o/h uses a website which is free for about 6weeks called headspace, he talks about how to breath properly , how to live in the present, not the past or the future, it might just help, they are in 10 minute sections to get you to relax. hope this helps love jasper xx

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Hi,

Poor you, Jasper has asked if your Dad knows, a problem shared and all that.

Also you said you were tired and hot this doesn't help when you are suffering with depression, I wonder if you wanted to go on holiday?

I hope you get some help via your Dad or Doctors and can enjoy a little of your holiday. xx