I'm new to the forum and haven't used support like this before but I feel kind of stuck and I wasn't sure where to turn.
I've had difficulties with depression since I was about 14 (now 23) including a failed suicide attempt. I have times when it is not such an issue, but for the last 6 months I've been feeling really bad again. I've tried with my GP, but after now trying (unsuccessfully), practically every type of ant-depressant available, she has decided that it is just my personality. If anything this has made me feel worse, because I know there is something more going on. I now feel almost completely hopeless.
At the moment, I'm having real difficulty focussing at work and I feel really guilty about that. As a result, I'm not really enjoying work very much. I also have nothing going on in my spare time. I moved here to start my job and moved away from all my friends. I'm not looking forward to work and I'm not looking forward to my spare time. I know I need to change something and be more active, but this is what I find so hard. If it isn't the lack of motivation stopping me, then it's my anxiety.
I guess I just want to know if other people have been in a similar position and what they were able to do to turn things around. I'd really love to learn a musical instrument or a foreign language or something, but at the moment I can barely afford to eat each month.