On a daily bases I work behind a bar, I constantly feel like I am being judged and ridiculed by the customers. When I come home from work I feeling like my parents ridicule me as well with simple things that make me feel worthless; yet they don't see it. I try to tell them but they brush it off with saying I am just making excuses. I have honestly never felt so helpless or lonely in life.
There have been times when I lay in my bed at night, struggling to sleep, think what would happen if I just never woke up? Would it be for the best? I know that I would not feel the loneliness and helplessness that I do and end up -more often than not- crying myself to sleep. Only to wake up in the morning to see myself in the mirror and listen to the voices saying I'm not good enough both physically and mentally.
I have no one to turn too...
And the truth is, I'm scared.