Am I really a monster?

[Titain]

You see I’m just here to get things off my chest and if you don’t want to read this than don’t. You see I suffer from depression and my siblings say that they hit that hard. But it hard to believe them because they ar always so happy. You know, well if you know how I feel than, do get that feel like..... to kill yourself? If you do and have been through it can you please give me some pointers. Thanks to those who stayed and read this all the way through.

[Natsteveo]

Hi @titain believe it or not everyone suffers with depression in different ways your siblings may seem so happy but it’s probably their way of coping we all put on a brave face when really we are all struggling too...take robin williams for instance I know it’s completely different but he always laughed smiled always the funny guy yet he was struggling big and nobody knew...are you on any meds at all or had councilling of any sort.. you are not a monster you are human who’s going through a hard time at the minute you need someone to be there for you that’s what we are for

Take care

Nat

[hypercat54 in reply to Natsteveo]

Great reply Nat x

[Natsteveo in reply to hypercat54]

Thanks babe xx

[Titain in reply to Natsteveo]

Thank you but at the time being I do not wish to say anything to them so they don’t worry and no I’m not on meds and can’t be on them due to lack off money but thank you for reading all the way through.

[justanote]

I have family members who suffer from depression and it's no joke. Please consider getting some help through a counselor or support group. God placed you on this earth for a purpose. Don't give up! Here's a counseling hotline you can call: 855-382-5433. I'm praying for you!

[Titain in reply to justanote]

Thank you but I just want to keep this hidden for as long as possible but I’ll think about and also not to offend you but I don’t believe in god sorry

[justanote in reply to Titain]

Please reconsider counseling. Keeping your depression hidden will only isolate you more from people who can help you. I'm sorry that you don't believe in God, but He definitely believes in you!

[SoulOfALion]

Hey @Titain. I have suffered with depression for the last 3 years. It is a fight everyday, but it's a fight you can WIN. Take things one day at a time.

Depression affects people different ways. Think of yourself as a soldier. Your only concerned about the mission happening today and right in front of you. You have no control over what happens tomorrow. When tomorrow comes it will be today, which means you'll have control over you that day. Depression is a shapeshifting monster. Stay in the fight. Never give up. Slay it. You're gonna be okay.

[Titain in reply to SoulOfALion]

Thank you I honestly didn’t think people would be this kind again thank you!

[Othona]

Hi Titain I've suffered with depression for a long time and I totally get not wanting to talk about it. I find that part so incredibly hard which is why being able to write about it on a forum like this is so valuable. I also struggle with anxiety but my antidepressants help with that a lot. But I feel my depression creep up on me most days. As mentioned above it is great advice to take things one day at a time. Looking into the future when you deal with so much pain can be overwhelming. Have you tried writing about how you feel? As in a diary or any kind of writing - for me putting things into stories and poems sometimes feels more constructive. Doesn't have to be anything you show to anyone if you want to keep it private. I believe the behaviour we exhibit is a symptom of what we're going through or have gone through it doesn't define who you are. You are a valuable asset to the world and you deserve whatever it takes to make you happy x

[Titain in reply to Othona]

Thank you for reading my whole thing even though you didn’t have to and I know how hard this is going to be I’ve be suffering since I was 6 years old.

[Sillysausage234]

Just saying hello and no your not a monster ,be kind on yourself 🌤