I am not sure it is ok to write like that…. It is so personally. But I really want someone to give me a piece of advice.
A little about the background.
Some time ago I was pretty happy. I just got married, I was successful at my work. And my friends always supported me. But I haven't realized my happiness. Only now, I see what I have lost.
We were considered to be a nice couple. We travelled a lot and had a lot of things in common. But we began feeling that we were lacking of something important. We were lacking of kids. Gradually my husband started becoming distant to me. I was aware it was due to not having kids. I had checked up myself and I was shocked. My diagnosis was called resistant ovarian syndrome. I have received therapy of estrogens. Despite this treatment I still haven't been able to get pregnant. My husband lost his temper. Our relationship has been broken up. Nowadays I am depressed.
I believe that the baby is some gift from God and we should be deserved this. It goes I have not deserved This Grace.