long term boyfriend & ex-friends got sperm together and have a baby all behind my back. He says it was to help them. he wants nothing to do with baby. his excuse he thought he was dying with a Tumor scare. he is a redhead, no backbone with depression at times. i felt like a knife in chest.he is crying on my doorstep now for forgiveness as wants to be with me. he was never there for me we haven't had sex in years he wants to try but i just don't think it will anymore. that is why i had affairs because of his lack of emotions. it will take counselling to take him back!
i am away in EU. my first plan of action is to move out of Tameside and into Cheshire or another part of Lancashire. This i must do for myself.
i thought i was over infertility but this has set me back 10 years.
i just don't know .................... can i forgive him?