Hello I am new here as I've only just found you. In December last year I was placed into an induced coma. They started bringing me round after 2 weeks and I regained consciousness after 3 weeks. I had some truely horrible experiences whilst paralysed and unable to communicate much due to treachioctomy. Although I was completely lucid at this point I was slapped, shouted out, forcibly medicated, dragged about and hurt, receiving no dignity during wash and toileting, I had my handbag searched in front of me by a nurse !! I was so scared of the nurses I held back on complaining. They would hoist me and leave me sat for hours on open bed soars until I was sweating and crying with pain, I received no skin viability testing. On top of this I received no physio from physio trained staff just from nurses who kept making me stand from low beds and chairs and getting me stuck because I had not got the muscle strength to stand. I have NO diagnosis as to why I was put into coma, or indeed received no follow up regarding my chest and MRI scans which I was expecting. My GP is chasing hospital up for a second time. I am desporately trying to recover, to become able bodied again. I'm 5 months into recovery but have no idea how long it will take. I am an intelligent middle aged woman who has been reduced to a nervous wreck. I feel I should have complained more, told them no and to stop hurting me. I just can not comprehend how and why this happened. Now they want to write me up in the BMJ and have sent me a draft publication. Their research into my medical history is completely wrong and I simply can't understand how they could diagnose and treat me when it was all based on incorrect information ??? Even my GP is struggling as she can not answer my questions as its not in her experience but I am reliant on her. She has confirmed that no where in my medical records does it say some of the things they have written as my medical history at hospital. But obviously I knew this. As expected I do suffer the nightmares etc bug I understand these. Finally, knowing I'm an undiagnosed anaphylactic the nurses kept slapping creams on me without testing so that I had horrible painful reactions with swelling and soars as well as leaving me with raised soars on my throat as I reacted to plasters. I am now bald as my waist long hair has fallen out maybe reaction to medications may be stress and so very stressed and confused by my treatment. I am thinking of a living will as I never want to wake up in that hospital again or to go through their medical care again. As I live remotely there is little option for hospital choice. I was finally moved from ICU after 5 weeks as I threatened to sign out. I was on a ward for 1.5 days. I was cared for and helped and sent home ???? Please can anyone help me ?