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That's the only word I could think to put to start writing everything was going so well with the pregnancy the injections seemed to be working I was eating healthy and taking such care of myself I went for my early scan as planned on 12th of April and couldn't believe my body had failed me again my peanut was not in my womb but in my right tube again absolutely heart broken is an understament last Wednesday I was brought for surgery to remove my right filopian tube and the pregnancy the surgeon had a look around in there and found I've scar tissue damage from an appendix opp I had at 3 years old that had damaged my right tube part of one of my kidneys he said my left tube looked OK on the outside but he didn't want to disturb inside as of now we don't know what to do the heartbreak is unbearable I've reached a point where I just feel numb I'm not returning to work till end of May think I just really need healing time mentally emotionally and physically I'm exhausted I wish it was a happy post i was posting with lovely scan pictures but my body has completely betrayed me I feel so lost thanks for reading xx

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Julie_T

I have no words....sending heartfelt virtual hug..

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bookish

I too am without words - shedding a few tears for you and wishing you some peace and comfort.

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I am so very very sorry to hear your news, at such a difficult time, please be among friends on here, many have been through a similar situation, we are all here to support you. Do draw family and friends you trust, close to you, to help you at such a stressful time, your hormones will also be very upset currently, please do go and see your GP if things become too much, you doctor may suggest you have some support at this moment in time. Please do use this forum as much as you feel able to, a big hug coming your way. MaryF

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I am so heartbroken with you, I am so sorry for your loss.

Please remember you have done nothing wrong, as I know you are searching for answers and blame.

Giving yourself time is such a good idea, please share your feelings with family and we are here to support you too. If is gets too over whelming please seek help from your GP.

Sending you a big hug, be kind to yourself xxx

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I am sorry I don’t have the power to take away the pain and trauma. The numbness is part of this trauma and it’s important to talk about what has happened here and to those closest to you.

I don’t know you and don’t want to pry, but your partner will also be traumatized seeing you in so much pain and sorrow. I would encourage you both to share your feelings - anger, sadness - and perhaps talking to someone outside your family and friends.

Do what is right for you.

Please use this space as often as you need!

Love and support will slowly heal your profound pain, but you need time to slowly heal.

With good wishes,

Ros

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prj789

I am so sorry and want you to know you have friends here you haven’t met personally, but that care about you. Please come to this place anytime, day or night to share your heart. We are here for you and praying for you.❣️

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Mermaidatheart

I cannot think of any words that could be comforting in your need. I will pray for you.

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daisyd

Oh I am so sorry how awful, I had an ectopic pregnancy and had a tube removed but got pregnant again quite quickly, so don’t give up hope

Thinking of you

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You are right. “Heart broken “ must barely scratch the surface right now, but is probably the closest word in the English language you can get.

I’m so pleased you’ve come on here today. Like Prj789 said so well, it is a place to share your heart.

Warmest of wishes for a physical and emotional healing... it will not feel this terrible forever as you know, but it certainly does now. And we are here for you while you walk your way through it.

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Scandal

So sorry,

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Sara_A

I'm so so sorry, take all the time u need and let ur family and friends support you, it's a terrible loss and u will do a lot of crying I know! But just let it all out.

I'm so sorry and sending a massive hug xx

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murphylotte

❤️❤️ sending caring Angels your way 🙏 remember to talk with your partner all the time, that is most important that you support each other.

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Sarahjj87

Am so sorry I wish I could say something that would make you feel better at this horrible time. Sending best wishes and hugs

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GinaD

You certainly have done everything you could. But still. ... Boom.

Yes, heartbreaking. But you will come through this. Don't hide your pain, from yourselves or from others. But you will come through the pain to that other side. And we are all here for you. Most of us have navigated similar traumas. Hang in there. Pick up a book of poetry, or the Bible, or a good novel. Let the words resonate. Take a nice walk out in nature. Listen. We care.

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Kinsalelady

I am so sorry for you. Hang in there. Things can turn around. Sending love and prayers to you. 🙏🏻❤️

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milkwoman

So sorry to read such sad news. 😢

Know this:

You are STRONG.

You WILL get through.

Don’t let ANYONE tell you how to feel. Give yourself time, as long as it takes, to grieve and heal.

Sending you hugs and love. 💕

God bless.

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Ageingfemale

I’ve just read your post and am so sorry for your loss. Please keep posting on here and we will do our utmost to give you support to help you through. Don’t keep blaming your body / yourself. It’s not your fault. Please take care and know we are all giving you a comforting hug. xx

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