worried

[charlieab]

Hi

In 2015 I was in good physical health and then things went down hill continuously. I developed mild tinnitus, then severe tinnitus (with more and more and louder and louder noises), then visual snow and all kinds of visual intrusions, and then last month I developed raynaud's and legs that keep turning purple or red. The rhuematalogist I saw thinks it could be APS and has ordered some blood tests.

Im in a pretty bad way mentally as have had over two years of worsening health wiuth no real answers. they thought iut might be MS at one stage on account of mutliple brain lesions. In meantime, Ive lost my job, had to give up my phd, lost my home and my wife left me. And the "mood music" to this has been 8 plus loud tinnitus noises screeching in my head. In short, Im feeling pretty exhausted, sorry for myself, and afraid.

Im not sure what Im asking. Just venting maybe.

I suppose one fear is that, if its APS, then my cognitive functiion could be affectyed, and it will be hard to carry on with reaserahc (which was my passion)? I already think I have lost a good bit of memory, although that could be the depression which has followed in the wake of the physical health problems.

Thanks for reading.

best wishes

TINNITUS