Ptsd

[Micky14]

I've stayed at my mums trying to reconnect with family it's so hard because u feel so odd in the room I just want to be present but I've enjoyed time with them I cnt won't let this win I just need to believe in myself

[Poohbear_1 Pioneer]

That's the spirit never give up and always keep that hope that things can and will get better.

[DisneyDreamer86]

You're alot stronger than I am... I still hate being around my family, because they give me so much grief - they don't believe that I have PTSD, and are very stressful for me to be around. I've pretty much closed myself off to most people, except for my Fiancé for fear of being hurt, and because alot of situations cause major flashbacks. Even grocery shopping is nerve wracking for me. I feel better with a "Fur-Baby" around, though. Or in a horse barn... The combination of scents is calming for some reason, and where I have the most confidence.

[Micky14 in reply to DisneyDreamer86]

I hate shopping it's like I switch out family a I still have trouble with family members not understanding me and tell me to stop crying i force myself to be with family so I reconnect with them and myself ptsd is struggle I find breathing slowing before going anywhere helps hugs healing takes time x

[DisneyDreamer86 in reply to Micky14]

I wish my family got it - especially my nana, cause we used to be really close, but now all we do is fight. Not physically - but we have some pretty intense verbal exchanges. My family hates my Fiancé, and want me to ditch him - which I refuse to do. One of their tactics is to "kidnap" me, take me to my mom's, and when I'm basically trapped in the car, start in on how horrible they think my Fiancé is. They know I'm not confident enough to try to get home on the bus, so I have nowhere to go. By the time I get home, I'm usually pissed-off (sorry, no other way to put it) beyond reason, I seriously want to beat someone senseless, and really want a big glass of rum & coke, or better yet, a joint of weed. I DO occassionally have a few drinks, but since taxes on that just went up in my area, that won't be happening very often. I don't smoke weed anymore, but I still crave it when I'm stressed-out. As for the anger, I have a really short fuse after I've been around my family, and have verbally blasted people for stuff like getting in my personal space. One lady actually deserved it, cause she came up behind me and hit me with her walker - I was polite at first, but after about the third time she did it, I turned around and told her to back the hell off or I was going to chuck her walker across the street. All she would have had to do was say "excuse me", and I would have moved, no problem. But seniors who are rude like that - I have ZERO respect for. If they expect the younger generations to have respect for them, then they better earn it, and hitting someone who is standing waiting for a traffic light just because you want to cross the street first is no excuse.

[BeckyBB]

You will believe in yourself. Because that is what you are wanting. So that is what you have thought about. I have been trying to. As fast as I become aware that I'm having memories that take me back there I claim THE GOOD THOUGHTS OF WHAT I WANT NOW LIKE I AM SAFE, I AM LOVED, I BELIEVE IN MYSELF, and it is sometimes 1000 times a day. And I am now living a being loved, being cared for, safe life. Still scary sometimes but I have to just claim the good and it really is how my life is. I wonder if I'll ever have an entire day believing it. What do you think? I think so because that is what is happening everyday. and I know its because I claim it all day. I've chosen not to be around anyone who abuses me. So I have created a nice loving life. And oh does it feel good. Keep up the good work and I will too. Let me know how you are. Lets help each other