Life sucks sometimes!
I have a little card from Headway that says I am the survivor of a brain injury etc. when I showed that to some 'friends' of 'friends' when out to explain the reply was cool and great I want one so I can swear and get away with it. So cruel and so not funny and so prejudiced but then they were told it was real and not a joke .... they were left stunned and trying to find the words to apologise.
I just dont understand life around me some days and it is like a black cloak of depression just wraps itself round my shoulders and wont let me see the sunshine.
In my simple world there is a rainbow and somedays it is bright colours against a blue sky and other days the sky is dark and stormy but the rainbow is still bright. Some times my rainbow is pale, some days there are two, some times there is just a small part of my rainbow visible in an unexpected way. On bad days there is no rainbow. Mostly I look out and see my sunny funny rainbow somewhere and smile at it and I wish I had a bucket of rainbow paint so others could see my world.
Sorry for waffle but today someone has smudged my rainbow colours a bit to a shade of murky yuk.
My actions and words have led someone who should know better to judge me instantly and decide I am offensive! at that I cried. I went to see them as I was upset by another who when I said I am sorry I cannot recall your name and another person present told me her name ... she retorted oh dont bother telling her she wont remember! as a result of that woman's prejudice and bigotted comments which showed her ignorance I got told that my actions and words are deliberately offensive!!!!! and that is after I had explained several times to the group that I have a trauma acquired brain injury and apologised when I first met them 8 weeks ago that sometimes my actions may seem inappropriate but it is how I see things! To be told that I should know better and life is not all black and white!!!! Which words in the phrase "part of my brain is not working properly" did she not listen to? and student support for disabled students with learning difficulties .... that is the biggest joke/insult of all.