The missing pieces

So this morning I've found out about my accident back in 1983. She is an old friend of my family. Her words were it was horrific and she tried to stop me from running out from behind the bus that day but my coat came off and the car hit me she said I bounced my head off the windscreen and ended up further down the road. She was the one to raise the alarm bless her she still had my coat in her hand. The phrase bounced like a doll came from her. I now know what actually happened and I've found out who has been shouting my name in my dreams since childhood...its her as she screamed my name when trying to stop me. I'm slowly starting to build a picture of my accident..after 37 years she still remembers it like it were yesterday...JUST WOW👍👍👍👍

[Painting-girl]

It must be helpful for you to piece all this together S. Very brave of you to revisit.

It must have been terrifying for her to stick so clearly in her memory.

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Yeah she said she has severe anxiety about roads still because of what she witnessed that day we were laughing at the fact that the person waking me in my traumatic dreams all these years was her lol I must admit my blood run cold and I were wet through with sweat as soon as she described what happened. I'm so grateful to be able to understand it more now since speaking with her via email..it was a bad one apparently my mum told me the reason I'd survived is because I was doing karate before my accident and was physically fit and supple Today is a good day so far👍👍👍

[Pairofboots]

An event like this will have traumatised your friend as much as it did you. Not physically, but psychologically. It must have been difficult for her to relive that day, to fill in what happened to you. I hope it will be a healing experience for you both. 🍀

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Yeah it was traumatic to relive it again with her as my accident has affected her through her life too. I felt all weird inside cold chills and sweats instantly I'm just so glad I've been able to find the missing piece of that day even tho the whole event is wiped completely from my mind which is a good thing. Talking with you and others via this forum has given me so much I now can understand why I've been like I have since the age of 11. I never ever knew about my own BI as I've spent life trying to fix it without success and run from it..I ain't running anymore👍👍👍